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husband and wife i love my wife her name is esther and i love her :D we met in nynpccbatch41 in 2007 and we fell in love~ :D and its obvious why i love esther. she's the only councillor in our squad! (she wears the sleeves, and a heart on her sleeves!) and she's very clever! woo! my laopo is esther. and she's the best :D i love my husband her name is glenda and i love links esther laopo glenda laogong archives September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 March 2009 September 2009 credits layout designer and image: eloquent |
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date: Monday, November 3, 2008
time: 1:58 PM
now that the goodbyes had been said, i feel empty inside. after this phase has passed, it seems like a part of me has been taken away. the ending of 2008 may have no impact on some people like how the end of 2007 had no impact on me, but i really have mixed feelings about it and i dont know how i really feel. the realization of this end doesnt seem to have completely sunk in but it hurts as much, maybe even more. why didnt it hurt so much before. i dont remember the ending of 2006 being like this. 有时候舍不得也不是办法, but certain emotions cannot be controlled.while walking home today i was thinking of why im in nanyang now (apart from the fact that im quite clever and why im so clever) i remember in primary school i didnt like the idea of being in a high-class school that is single-sex some more with white sleeveless uniforms. then i thought of what if i was not in nanyang. i wouldnt have met sqdms, friends, etc, and i wont be the same me. but would life be better? maybe if i wasnt in nanyang, at this point of time i wouldnt be feeling how i feel now. dramamamamamama today. sucks again - -" 1 week to performance. thats 7 days, which is only 2 or 3 more practices, which is obviously not enough. but i think clarine is right, i've given up. when you stand in a desert facing only heaps of sand, and you shout, there's nobody there to listen, nobody to help you. and it feels just like that. when things finally looked up, we fell again, this time even harder and further. why must you disappoint every time? its so frustrating to have to keep doing this again and again. 为什么非要对不起不应该对不起的人？i've lost all will to carry on, and i'd rather let it end badly now. maybe this way you'll feel the disappointment for once, instead of me. its 3 november already, please wake up. |